Tonight we had to say goodbye to S & B, for now. They head back home to France tomorrow. My dad came and spent the day with our kids so that we could take S & B to San Diego one more time. We had a lot of emotional moments today. It was so amazing. I've been told many times that the connection that Tim and I have with S & B is very very rare in a surrogacy case. My husband is as emotionally involved as I am. We really do have a special connection that cannot be explained. I wish that I could verbalize everything that I am feeling at this moment. It's late, but I knew that I needed to blog tonight to capture my raw emotion. I ugly cried in the car after we dropped them off. I don't know how to fully explain it, but now that they are done with their medical portion, it is now my turn. I feel as if the pressure is on. S & B put absolutely no pressure on me, but I want this to turn out perfectly for them. I hope to carry twins because it is what S wants, and it is what she deserves! I was excited to hear that since her egg retrieval on Friday, they were able to produce SEVEN viable embryos :) So exciting! Oh, and more exciting news, I have my final medical screenings this week! On our way to the hotel from dinner in San Diego, I held S's hands -- I needed that connection with her. I'm about to embark on this pregnancy journey with her child and I needed that connection. It tears me up inside that I am going to be enjoying this pregnancy while she waits for my reports on the other side of the country. I would give my uterus to her to use if I could. I know this post is all over the place, and I apologize, but I'm just perplexed. I'm... nervous... lost... excited... full of emotion I can't explain.
Thinking positive, only positive.
Love you S & B, safe travels
<3
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